Today was fun (:

Friday's with Zak today, it was a blast. I love that boy. Chris comes home tomorrow. Stoked.

Goodnight !

Done

K, so next time you try to hang out with me, hang out with ME. For the past few months I have not been able to see you without you inviting your other friends. If I wanted it to be a group thing, I would have mentioned inviting them. Instead, you take it upon yourself and invite whoever the fuck you want without asking me and I'm stuck being the third wheel of the fucking plans I made. Don't cut it out and I'll cut you out of my life. I'm done with this shit.

Happy Birthday Boyfriend (:

Chris' birthday is today (: I drove to Delaware to spend the day with him. I love that boy more than I ever thought I could ever love anyone. I feel like a smile is super glued to my face at all times.

Ugh

Hit 'n run on my car today. Can't drive it. Screw the human race.

Ghost

I am being left out of everything. Plans are being made all around me and I am in none of them. People are hanging out all over the place and I'm not with them. I'm losing people right in front of me. Chris and I are fighting already, he hasn't even been gone a day. I'm tired but I can't sleep. I just want to hibernate.

Spring break - day something

I have failed at updating every day of spring break. I don't remember what I've done anymore. Loyola was suppose to call me Wednesday or Thursday and here it is Friday and I still haven't heard from them. Last night I went to Fridays with Lindsay, Jason, Rob, Dan, Jess and Mark. I made the table uneven and felt far away from everyone. They all have this cute nickname for senior week this year and all these fun plans. It's Friday so Chris should come home today and I'm grateful for that. We fell asleep with our Skype videos still on so I can see him sleeping right now. It's so cute (even though it's creepy too). This weekend is the last bit of my spring break so I'm going to make it worth it.

Spring break - day 7 & 8

I'm starting to feel very very sick and I'm starting to believe I'm insane. My hypochondria and paranoia is eventually going to ruin everything and I just want to change that but I can't seem to do anything to calm down. I'm starting to really worry because I keep vomiting and every smell that enters my nose makes my stomach turn. I decided I'm going to lose 10 pounds in one month and I want to do it the right way this time. I'm going to make a chart of food to eat everyday and stick to it. Chris texted me saying "cya when i get out of class." Obviously, I know that's impossible but all I can think of is "DID HE SEND THAT TO THE WRONG GIRL!?" Told you, hypochondria and paranoia. I'm going to be our relationship's demise. Ugh, kill me.

Spring break - day 6

Today was wonderful. Mom and I went prom dress shopping and I found the perfect dress. Afterwards, I went out to sushi with Eric and ate $45 in sushi, asian pancakes and deep fried ice cream. It was so delicious. Now I'm going to get the best night of sleep ever, goodnight.

I'd just like to say I really enjoy being asked to hang out but never being told what we're actually doing. Next time I'll call you asking to hang out then go out with all my other friends and not tell you about it.

Happy Easter

or as Justin would call it, Happy "Birth of Jesus Day"... I swear that kid has no brain, ahahaha.

I hope everyone has a happy Easter and enjoys time with their family and loved ones (:

Spring break - day 4

Day 4 was pretty good. I woke up so early and waited for Chris to wake up. We ate Noodles for breakfast and then laid around, loved on eachother and had good times. Then we went to Hibachi Grill and ate our weight in food with his cousins and their friends. Now we're sitting around and Chris' tummy is hurting so bad. We should be at game night with the gang but Chris' tummy keeps moaning and groaning and I'm scared he'll puke/poop in my car D: aha, but seriously, not even a joke. So far spring break is really great.

Can't steal happiness (:

Spring break - day 3

Day 3 was okay but kind of boring. I got home from a fun day with Kelsey and Michelle and put oil in my car and sea foam in my tank after my dad was a poop. Afterwards I left my house and headed out to Chris' where I was there for maybe an hour until I passed out. The end.

Spring break - day 2

Yesterday/today so far was so good ! Yesterday, I took Lindsay out and taught her how to parallel park. She's doing so well ! Afterwards I met Kelsey at her house and we drove to Reisterstown to hang out with Michelle. We went to The House to see Evan and the owner gave me a free ice cream cone since I taught him how to twist the ice cream and then we went to Bill Batemans and ate yummy food. Then we went to Java Mama's and got good coffee. Haha, busy busy. Then we went to Evans and hung out with Carly and Alec and then headed to Michelles for sleepytime so so so late. We woke up this afternoon and went to Tahina's and ate the best food ever and now I am home. I wonder what day 3 of spring break will contain!? Make it good.

spring break - day 1

Today officially began spring break. Day one consisted of having a bunch of good laughs with the girls from school. Afterward, I drove Taylor home all the way in Reisterstown where we met up with Michelle and Evan and hit up The Cow for some gelati and then Tahinas for a vegetable bowl, yuuummmm. I keep eating so much it's ridiculous. Then we went back and watched Role Models. Michelle and Evan are so cute and it makes me miss Chris so much. He comes home in two days and I'm so pumped. I've been missing him more than I usually do. After that I drove home and ate a little bit of my quesadilla from last night. WHY DO I KEEP EATING SO MUCH!? ahaha. I'm going on a diet or something. I want a baby so bad right now.

Yummy Quesadilla

Tonight I went to Nacho Mama with my brother, Josh. That place is delicious and I'm really glad I got to catch up with him. I keep getting in these really unhappy moods that I just hate. My spring break is until April 20th so I better hang out with old friends and good people. I really wish Chris was here for my break, it's going to be so lonely without him. I wish my medicine was working like it should ): the end.

oh man

I really wish I was 21 so I could go to Fridays on Thursday nights with Lindsay and everyone. I really wish I knew my future, and most of all I really really wish I wasn't in this mood.

Talk about a miracle

Today, Mr. Adam went to go get his surgery and the doctor said his tumor wasn't there anymore, the MRI showed nothing at all, so no brain surgery, no nothing. I'm so pumped right now it's not even funny. I'm really hungry right now. I want Fridays ! .... again X:

Hard day

Chris spent the entire day in the hospital with his dad so at night I went over there to see all of them before the big day. His tumor is on the right side and it's about the size of an eye. I'm so nervous but I know everything's going to be okay. I cried a lot before I went over there 'cause I'm always so nervous and anxious but Mr. Adam seems so relaxed and not worried. I'm buying him a bunch of candy and making a little basket full of goodies for him while he's in the hospital. I really love that family and most of all, I love Chris.

Happy family (:

Meet Baby Sean, he's so pretty and perfect and wonderful. My favourite (: I really hate how my arm looks in that picture but oh well. Today was so good, hanging out with the Preisinger family and having a cookout. Papa-in-law has brain surgery on Friday and I'm so nervous for him. Everyone wish him luck ! I really need to do this homework. SEE YA !